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Saturday, January 3rd, 2004
2:06 am - Life
Wondering what the hell I'm doing with myself lately. Been workin a dead end job with basically no chance of promotion up at Little Caesers in Berkley. Moved out of the house and in with my girlfriend and a few friends. Seems like it's been nothing more than conflict upon conflict building up. I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I love my girlfriend, but I feel trapped. I feel like I'm stuck in a situation I really have no control over and am just being worn down slowly to nothing.

I've got court coming up next Wednesday. Might be going to jail for a month. Yippee. Even more wonderful news. If that happens, I'm probably going to be without a job or place to live. I'll be out on my ass and even further up shit's creek without a paddle. Goddamn, I must be doin somethin right, cause life sure has been treatin me sweet lately.

I feel like a little piece of shit floating around the toilet bowl that is life. I've been avoiding the flush for quite some time now, and looks like I'm about to finally head down the drain.

Nice knowin you all. I'd say it's been fun, but I don't like to lie.

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Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
2:13 am - Freedom
Well, down to the last 4 days. As of Saturday, 8:30 am, I'll once again be a free man. Goddamn it's gonna be nice to be able to go out and do something whenever I want to again. This tether fuckin killed my entire summer. I can't wait to get the hell out of this house and away from my family. I love em and everything, but three months of constantly being home with em is plenty. I need a change of venue. It'll be nice to actually see some friends too. I've only had like 5 visitors these past 3 months. Guess I know who my real friends are now. Now hopefully I can find a job pretty quick. I'm goin to school this fall, and if I can find an even halfway decent job for the time being I should be on my way.

If you wanna party this weekend, call me. (248) 435-6959. I'm finally gonna be free, and it's time to party hardy. I'll even see if I can scrounge up some money to provide the "party favors".

Hopefully I'll see ya guys this weekend. Or at least some of ya.


current mood: drunk

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Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
11:50 am - Weird Shit
Yet another weird fuckin dream last nite.......

This time I was a ninja turtle (Leonardo I think), trying to rescue Raphael. He had been kidnapped by some dude that was a complete parapalegic. The parapalegic guy had made himself a suit so he could move, and setup a complex security system in some rundown loft in the ghetto, all controlled by a video game controller that he had for his left hand. We were having a helluva time getting past all his security, cause apparently the kid was a video game whiz. We finally succeeded in getting into the house and disconnecting the power to the security so we could get up to the top floor to rescue Raph, but it seemed that the guy had his suit hooked up to a UPS so he could move even if he lost power. His suit gave him super strength, and since he was a video game whiz especially at fighting games like Mortal Kombat n shit, he was holding his own against me n the other 2 turtles. We finally seemed to be turning the tide and beating him when I woke up.

Weeeeeeeird Fucking Shit.

Especially since it's been well over two years since I've done acid now.

current mood: awake

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Sunday, June 15th, 2003
11:44 am - Hey everyone
Long time no see. Finally got my computer up and runnin again. Yippee!..........

Weird fuckin dream last nite. It was like "The Ring" meets "Scooby Doo" meets "Resident Evil".

I was stuck in some weird old house out in the middle of nowhere, with like 3 friends of mine. Weird shit was happening and there was some phantom like creature after us all. I was armed with a rifle, and my friends had pistols, yet the creature seemed to be completely unaffected by the bullets. It'd slow it down a little bit, but it'd just keep coming after us. Finally after runnin from this thing for what seemed like hours we seemed to escape from it in the basement. We had just got a light working down there when we were confronted by our own evil twins. Bullets didn't do shit against the clones either. We ended up succeedin in locking the twins in some storage room in the basements, when we noticed a breeze coming from under the stairs.

We moved a buncha shit out of the way, and ripped down the wall right next to the stairs, only to find another set of stairs leading further down into what turned out to be some sort of dungeon. We got down the stairs, narrowly missing getting our heads removed by a booby trap that send a guillotine crashing down on us. The dungeon was even darker and creepier than the basement had been, but it sounded like there was someone down there that was struggling and needed our help. We got a torch burning, and discovered another one of our friends chained to the wall and hanging over a pit of broken glass, wasting away to almost nothing. Just then we heard a crash, as our evil twins broke free from the room.

We struggled with em for what seemed like an eternity, but ended up throwing em into the pit of glass. We built a bridge over the pit, and succeded in rescuing our friend, only to be completely double crossed. Turned out it wasn't actually our friend, it was the phantom. It then used it's powers to magically chain us all to the walls, where we were to be left to wither away to nothing over the next few miserable weeks.

Luckily that's where I woke up. Weird fuckin shit. It really kinda genuinely disturbed me tho. So much for a good night's sleep.

current mood: exhausted

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Sunday, February 23rd, 2003
11:56 pm
I could really use a hug.
Just some company would be nice.
I hate having the house all to myself and having nothing to do.
Save me.
I'm here all alone all week with nothing to do.
If nothing else a call would be nice.


Now lets hope I'm able to fall asleep tonite and the utter boredom won't keep me up.
Sometimes I wish I could just turn my brain off.

current mood: lonely

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Wednesday, January 22nd, 2003
2:37 am - More positive news
I may have found a job. Spent all morning and afternoon riding my bike up n down 12 mile putting in apps, and a few looked quite promising. Stopped in this pretty upscale banquet hall/ lounge/ restaurant and put in an application and spoke to the manager. Told him what had happened at my last job (the bullshit about me getting fired) and he completely agreed with me on the situation. He said he had been looking for another busboy, and had interviewed a few guys already, but he thinks I may be just what he was lookin for. He's calling me tomorrow, and gave me his card and said if I hadn't heard from him by 2 to make sure and give him a call. Got my fingers crossed.

Time to finish my beer and go get some well deserved rest.

current mood: tired

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Friday, January 17th, 2003
11:42 pm
Happy Belated B-Day to me n shit. Turned 21 Wednesday. Been in a really positive mood lately too. Trying to expel all the negative energy from my life and just focus and thrive on the positive. Realized quite a bit about life lately, and been enjoying it more than I have in quite some time. Taking it a day at a time, and finally beginning to really like it. I feel stronger now than I have been in quite awhile, and it's really refreshing. :)

Some booty would be damn nice tho.............any takers?

current mood: optimistic

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Tuesday, September 17th, 2002
1:56 pm
I just woke up crying. I have no clue why. I've just been vaguely depressed all this week, and don't really know how to fix it. Life just seems exceptionally difficult lately, and it's not showing any signs of letting up any time soon.

I feel like life is one big river, and right now I'm drowning.


current mood: depressed

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Monday, September 9th, 2002
10:12 am - Wow this is early
Slept like shit last nite. A lot on my mind lately. Bills to pay, debts to pay off, and me with a spending problem. If I have money, I tend to spend it. I need to quit doin so. Wrote myself out a budget last nite, and I think it'll work if I can stick to it. Hopefully I'll be gettin more hours at work, cuz that would make everything a lot easier. Alright, time to drag my cracked out ass up to the store for some cigs. Should be a fun nite at work later, considering I'm runnin on like an hour of sleep. Yippee.

current mood: stressed

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Saturday, August 31st, 2002
3:06 am - Wow
Pretty damn toasted. Smoked a buncha herb tonite, and it was quite decent for a change too. Nice, seein as I have to quit Sunday. Fucking probation. Fuck Ferndale and their entire police force. Assholes. But oh well, I'll deal. It'll help clear my head and will save me quite a bit of cash too. That'll be nice. Enough random stoner babble. Time for video games and anime. :D

current mood: high

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Friday, July 26th, 2002
3:03 pm
Well, life's progressing pretty steadily lately. The girlfriend is great, she's everything I'm lookin for in a woman. Work has just gotten better, I really like all my coworkers, and I could see myself doin it for awhile. Finally somethin I like. Life has been lookin up lately. Now it's time to go see my girl and smoke some ganja. :) Talk at ya later guys.

current mood: cheerful

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Wednesday, July 17th, 2002
2:08 am - I've got a girlfriend.
She rocks fuckin hardcore. I'm happier right now than I've been in almost a year, and it's only gotten better so far. :D

Life is good once again. :)

current mood: loved

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Wednesday, July 10th, 2002
2:22 am - The One and Only Good Part About Lonliness
You're the only head on the joint. :D

current mood: high

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Sunday, July 7th, 2002
8:44 pm - Life
I don't know if anyone out there even reads this anymore, but I'm gonna vent anyways.

Sat here alone. All day. Tried calling friends, but nobody answered. The job I was supposed to start tomorrow is a no go. The guy decided he didn't need me. Yippee.

I feel unwanted. Alone. Left behind. I haven't hung out with anyone in days now.

I just wish I had someone I could talk to. Someone who would really listen, and care. I've got literally nothing goin for me in life right now. I feel lost, and don't even have anyone to talk to about it. The thing that hurts the most is I'm really trying this time. I've been out putting in job applications all week, but nobody wants to hire a loser like me. All my "friends" have vanished, and I don't even know why. They just stopped calling, stopped coming around. And just when I needed them the most.

It hurts, and I don't have the slightest clue how to make it stop.

current mood: crushed

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Sunday, June 30th, 2002
2:40 am - What the....?
I just got punched in the face twice and kicked out of my old house....? I don't even really know what brought this on. I told my friend Vicki that I thought she was hot and wanted to fuck her (I'm pretty drunk). She took it completely the wrong way and got pissed. I meant it as a compliment. I got bitched the fuck out and kicked out, and then punched in the face twice. I didn't even get a chance to explain myself. I wish people would listen...... I didn't mean to offend anyone. :(

current mood: confused

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Sunday, June 23rd, 2002
2:29 pm - Bah
Hey everyone. Haven't seen ya in awhile. I was without internet for a few months. Moved out on my own and shit. Nice to be back.

So..... not much goin on. Had to move back in with my dad cause I lost my job last weekend... up to my ass in debt... need to find a job... sittin around the house kinda bored. If anyone out there reads this today and wants to hang out feel free to gimme a call.



current mood: bored

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Thursday, February 7th, 2002
11:50 pm - I miss LSD
I really do. It's been almost a year since the last time I tripped. Acid's honestly my drug of choice. I would give anything to find some. Tripping made life interesting. Even the most boring thing became incredibly interesting. In the short time that I've been doin LSD I've done quite a bit. Had some truly unbelievable days and nites. But it sure was a helluva lot of fun.


Enough random babble. Time to zone back out to the TV

current mood: high

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Tuesday, January 29th, 2002
7:28 pm
Sittin around waitin for rides is boring. Blah.

Update on the life of Pete..... nothin much has changed. Duh. :P Been hangin out with friends and smokin a lot of weed 'n playin video games. I'm addicted to Bond for PS2. I've gotten quite good and can usually dominate everyone. I've pretty much gave up on findin a job, but other "business" is lookin up. Should be makin quite a bit of cash this month. :)

Well, time to go waste some more time waitin.

Peace out kids.

current mood: geeky

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Tuesday, January 22nd, 2002
1:55 pm - Don't know what it is
But this music always puts a smile on my face. :)

Life is good kids, enjoy it to the most. The sun is shining, and it's a beautiful day. Lets all go make the most of it.

Have a wonderful day. I love you all more than you know.

current mood: jubilant

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Tuesday, January 15th, 2002
4:12 pm
Hippo Birdie to me and shit.

current mood: indifferent

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